Sunday, May 17, 2009

FUCKING NUMB

I'm not gonna take those drugs anymore, because they just left me feeling numb. I have felt SO "FUCKING NUMB" to everything in my entire life. TONIGHT I'VE REALIZED EVERYTHING IN MY HEAD IS NOT REAL. I'M BETTER OFF ALONE AND FOR THOSE I HOPE NO ONE GOES THROUGH THIS BY FEELING WORTHLESS. ITS THE WORST FEELING THAT I KNOW AND BY THAT IVE GONE THROUGH THINGS IN LIFE THAT I HOPE NO ONE EVER HAS TO GO THOUGH AND ID GO THROUGH THAT ALL OVER AGAIN TO NOT HAVE EVER FELT THIS WAY. DO YOU EVER WONDER WHY YOU EVER MEET SOMEONE. IF I COULD I WOULD TAKE THINGS BACK IN A SECOND. BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR. THEY COULD TURN ON YOU. EVERYONE IS BETTER OFF ALONE EVEN IF YOU THINK LOW ABOUT YOURSELF AS I DO NO ONE WILL HELP YOU. ALL THEY CARE ABOUT IS THEIRSELVES. PEOPLE ACT IN WAYS TO COME OFF AS "GOOD PEOPLE" BUT ALL THEY'RE FOOLING IS THEMSELVES BECAUSE THEY KNOW JUST HOW TO USE PEOPLE. YOU THE READER, READING THIS RIGHT NOW KNOWS THEY HAVE DONE THIS TO SOMEONE SO HOW ABOUT YOU FEEL SORRY ABOUT YOURSELF FOR A SEC THEN REALIZE ALL YOUR DOING IS BEING A HYP0CRIT AND STOP SAYING YOU HATE PEOPLE LIKE THAT OR THIS AND CHANGE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU BECOME ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE YOU STAY FAR FROM BECOMING.