Letting Go

When you are still in love, it affects your every decision.. Sometimes, what's TRUE in this world will be covered by so many unrealistic ideas. I realized that I've been one of those people.. I fell in love but I forgot to use my GUTS and BRAINS.. when people really fall in love, that happens right? Your so called "soldier" identity will become a "martyr" and as things screwd up your life, you got nothing left but LOVE...that's the reason behind why you still hold on to something that WASN'T REALLY THERE. You thought it was LOVE.. but little do you know that it was just PITY...a SELF PITY. Correct me if I'm wrong.... Why self pity? It's all because you thought that it could save you.. You ALWAYS thought that the only cure to your pain was him/her that you got blind to see ALL THE PEOPLE WHO LOVES YOU...you got blind to see the PEOPLE WHO ARE ALWAYS LEADING YOU TO THE RIGHT PATH...and sometimes, you listen to them as your last resort. Now... I am just so glad to be FREE FROM ALL OF THIS BLINDNESS. Actually it really lies in our own choice.. I don't believe in such word as DESTINY for you can really CHOOSE what to make things last in this world... it just takes great COOPERATION and COMPROMISE. BOTH OF YOU SHOULD HAVE YOUR OWN CHOICE TO STAY WITH EACH OTHER... Not just him/her... and hell...not just YOU. Sometimes the word destiny can just bring colors to our lives because of so many questions like.. Why is this happening? Maybe we are meant for each other.. Maybe we are "DESTINED". And as you BELIEVE in that, you start to choose on going to that path as YOUR OWN CHOICE. Now.. I had chosen this path... it just depends on the time if something happened that could make me choose the other path WHICH IS TO STAY.. Life is so beautiful.... IT GAVE ME A SECOND CHANCE to live it to the fullest.. I DON'T WANNA WASTE THAT CHANCE GIVEN TO ME... There are so many beautiful things to do in this world...but so little time. I must not take that for granted. I'm really happy and free right now from worries.. This is my life... no STRESS... no FIGHTS and I'm leaving it all behind.. I thank my friends and family for their non - ending support... Even though they served as my last resort before, I'm just so lucky to STILL have them on my side bringing me up whenever I fell that hard. Looking back at my past... Yeah, so many things changed.. we all grow up.. But it still feels like my home and my soul. I still like the way I used to like it. After all, things don't have to REMAIN THE SAME TO LOOK GOOD. GOD IS JUST SOOOO GOOOOOD. Those who never seek for GOd WILL NEVER FIND THE ANSWERS... I just feel so lucky to be ALIVE.