Monday, November 17, 2008

A Letter for Myself

Soon, another new year, another challenges, another experiences, another meeting new friends and another new better person and thats ME. I would like to change everything especially my priority. I want to be different, not that kikay, makulit and childish but a responsible WOMAN. Soon this year will end and I will face another chapter of my life, I just hope that I can survive because this fight is for my FUTURE, for my FAMILY and for my SON whom I love the most
SACRIFICE, I need to sacrifice a lot of things just to live. I can give up my own happiness and everything just for the sake of the people I love. I will do everything to protect my family and to give them a life that they deserve.
PAIN and TEARS, these two words are always after the word LOVE. The last past love experience is difficult for me because I loved them more than anything else(thats me when i fall, i give everything) but everything has to end. This pain is enough to make me feel that we're not meant to be . I never regret loving them because they thought me a lot of things and helped me become a better person, but still i didnt learn from my pasts. They are all part of my past, a big part of my life. I'll pray for them, I just hope someday that they can find themselves(??) and live happily with the people they love.
EXPERIENCES, without these experiences, I can't grow; I can't be the person that I am now. I screwed up, there are times that I am DISTURBED. I can't find my own HAPPINESS and I often ask this question "WHAT? WHO? and WHY? " I thought that I am looking for nothing but I'm wrong. My happiness is my family, my friends, my son and the blessings that I had received. Thanks for the people who shared me their life in the past few years, thank you for accepting me and thank you for loving me. I will never forget this life that I lived for 1year. Soon everything will change, and it is for the better.